N3w L1f3......

  Life without her for months suddenly felt so strange for me. I don't know why but I could feel something is missing from me. Compared to previous month, I have been a better person, slowly letting go and accepting  the inevitable truth. Still, there is still this unexplainable emptiness and sorrowfulness lying deep inside my heart. People say time will heal everything. I really wish this is real. However, from what I am feeling right now, time doesn't actually heal you, it just lets you getting used to the pain you were having before. It's more like a habituation really. A pain which causes me so much tears and silence to myself nearly every single moment has just became a tiny  little pain which intensifies periodically at certain time of a day. Now, whenever I do something, it is just not the same as before. I just don't know why. I tried to make myself happy by doing various thing but the effects are just temporary. This feeling sucks. I really hope it will disappear soon. When that happens, I will be ready to be myself again, a person who is happy without all this nonsense hurting him again.

  Love is cruel. If only God will allow the other half to feel how sorrowful the feeling is, I will bet everyone will think twice before falling in love and leaving a person.




Don't fall in love. Everything that falls will break instead. Learn to love. Not learn to fall in love.