und3c1ded?

Hmmmm,lets find a way to begin this post.It's been months since I last posted something.Here we go.Embrace yourself guys! I wonder how many people will not give up and just manage to hold on like me.My life is perfect but somehow terrible things keep happening.Blow after blow,I wonder how long can I take this. The so called optimistic me has slowly disappeared and I am becoming a realist, a person that accepts reality. Isn't this good?Perhaps I am just tired of hoping for better things when in the end all I get are disappointments and failures.Perhaps some other time in near future, it will get better? I don't know. I am afraid that I have just made a wrong move and ended up regretting forever.Perhaps I need to tell my parents.Thinking of it motivates me but at the same time, it terrifies me.If I dint involve in it at all just like my friends,perhaps I won't even have to suffer.Who knows?God knows.I hope I can just hold on to it.Just be friends?It ain't going to happen,sad but that is the reality.Lets just hope I don't make a stupid and reckless decision.